barry manilow and mandy...

after a long day of work galore i found myself alone again inside my apartment... awy frm my friends and family... dont you jst hate it?! that the blues are really kicking in with no one to talk and listen to from all of my exag. stories hehehe... i just take refuge hearing barry manilow and singing his infamous song mandy... well we all know that mandy is his contemporary bantay that we all remembered... yup! hppy pipol do always pass my way and i dont know why?!... i jst never realize how happy this girl has made me... reading her letter to me was really one big blow.... she gave somthing to me that i could not ever repay.. she kiss me and stop me from worrying about everything but as the song goes on and on i send her away but i really do feel i need her today ang dami pumapsok sa utak ko which i do really feel very lost... i think im too complicated to handle what the fuck am in doing in my life?!.. i jst dont see the light?! where am i going?!... am i living a happy life?! will i ever recover and digout from this hole?... i jst dont know what am i doing... i do really want to fix it and be happy but where does happiness leads me? i feel so lost... maybe being here is such a bad idea... got tons of deadlines to pursue... my boss is such a pain in the neck got no sisig and fruit punches... everything is changing i do hope someday i could and adapt bigtime!!... i jst wish i could click my puma shoes and say there's no place like home... and ppoooffff!!! i just know that to be strong if things fall apart... honest this breaks my heart... I never did do anything that she asked... I never let what happened, stay in the past...I never did quite understand what she meant....In spite of everything... is love really a game i never been this sacred in a long time this world is such an ugly place but your so beautiful to me...

alas! single life....

~`trickpa Trickyu~~