Remembering jme n my memoirs...august 20, 2005

when i was about to board my plane bound for dubai i could not help but read what jayme wrote to me... i could not wait whts in it...coz i did promise her that i would only read it when im on board... so since my blog is my diary i would like to share it and tell it how this letter mean so much to me even to this day... it would always put a smile on my face and be grateful for everything that happened... na kahit papano she became a part of my life....

So here it is....

august 17, 2005

11:34 am pinas

Patpy...

ayun... nyaha... jaaraaan....

just thought of this para you have something to read...

xmpre dapat happy.. bawal masad jan sa dubai na yan at bawal magmoda dapat focused lng... :)

para paguwi, mo here joe the millionaire ka na! nyhaha... pag wala ka magawa jan and you see yourself staring at the ceiling.. get up! grab a pen and write na the legendary book... nyaha.. with all details and all tapos pag la ka na sa mood to continue writing... isip mo everything as in everything you wish and wanted to happen before you die... list mo in a paper... tapos ang aim dapat ma checkan yun lahat... tpos pag bored ka pa rin... draw mo yung dream house mo.. pag tapos na yun, buy ka ng cook book para learn ka mag-cook dahil ang aim paguwi mo here, ikaw na magluluto... at takenote hindi na dapat prito...

pag la ka ulit magawa...isipin mo lahat ng friends mo na long lost at wala ka ng communication for the longest time write them an email to keep in touch...

just saying hi!... dapat di dami cell card/phone card expenses mo dahil kung su-sumahin mo yun, makakabili ka na ng kotse nun yng honda jazz...nyaha... at xympre the ultimate bilen... mag gym ka... para paguwi mo pwede ka ng magyabang na "borgy is that you?!" nyaha.. focus ha ( with the hand action..:) pag ikaw bumalik dito ng lumba-lumba... lagot ka samin sa asar..nyaha..

xmpre dont foget paguwi mo dapat naka review ka na jan... so therefore focus lang, dapat best in absorb and internalize mo na yung mga books mo jan.. ang aim is top sa board! nyaha...

[nyaha.. anlalaki na pala ng sulat ko... nsa cr kse ako nakaupo sa toilet bowl, jumejebs.. sayang oras e... nyaha maximize dapt]...

ayun, class ako now reporting mya2 si ate karen na report. tense na nyaha.. oist dapat po pala healthy living ka jan ha.. by the power vested on me, bawal ang puro hotdog meal.. corny yun e..

Therefore cooking lesson is a must… nyaha goodluck sa hair ko kung mahihintay kitang umuwi para makapag pagupit nyaha…
Tpos pag nasa moda mode ka suddenly at nagsesentihan ka jan… tayo ka sa kinauupuan mo tpos kunin mo psp mo and look at my picture holding my pizza… nyaha at super smile ka na…(with fingers pointed sa edge ng lips… nyaha.) [ galling drawing ko..nyaha..harhar ] ayan dahil na-mention ko ang drawing… magpractice ka jan at magpagaling mag-drawing…nyaha para pagbalik mo pwede mo na ako hamunin sa doodle IM envi. Ang chiki ng drawing mes e..kunwari ka pang sinisi mo yung mouse…as ef.. :P [ smile ako now…] what pa ba kwento ko sayo?! Nyaha.. para according nga sa term mo “ma-mmortalize” an gating kwentuhan moments…everytime..nyaha..
Haaayy..katatapos ko lng lang watch again Armageddon… haay… and tears still..nyaha.. super love this movie talaga. Ako lang here now… umalis sila ate Karen and nanay go sa caloocan para akong baliw cry2 magisa nyaha…aun..
I got another idea, paglakang magawa jan practice ka ng badminton! Nyaha…para galling ka na rin pagbalik.. tska lahat ng sports.. para dilang badminton & nba live ang play natin… nyaha… ishmyl… bawal mahuling nakakunot ang forehead owkay?!..
Tpos paglak uli magawa magtrip ka jan… pnta ka mall.. o somewhere na dami tao… ts bilangin mo nagmamay-ari ng magandang eyes jan.. tapos pag bored ka uli… gawin mong expertise ang photoshop at iedit mo lahat ng pix with you of your friends tpos isend mo to them as a funny card… nyaha.. [ pero yung akin po… wag mo po baboy face ko po ha..?! bati moko..di moko away..away moko..nyaha]
Aha! Tapos list mo lahat ng movies that you missed and want to watch! Tsaka list mo all the songs you like playing sa yng wedding day!.. you know the best way to preoccupy yourself is through thinking… as in deep thinking.. for sure.. ubos agad time.. baka hello,. 3 months lang yun… napakabilis lang that length of time… piece of cake to wait yun noh.. nyaha..
Bsta most importantly enjoy mo each day jan.. kahit mahirap e you have no choice naman e.. as if you have… therefore enjoying is a must and I know naman you’ll try to enjoy din dahil isa ka naman wanna-be-happy-perosn-all-the-time.. so im assured na hindi ka namn magppalugmok sa kanlungkutan at pagka miss jan… hell.. wawaka namn nun.. ppayag ban man si patpy na magmukang kawawa?!..nyaha.. di yata.. di bagay..nyaha.. so ayun..basically.. madali lng namn ang paglipas ng ilang buwan ganito… ggising ka lng sa umaga tpos mgbbreakfast.. eto e kung magsisipag kng mag healthy living at maghealthy breakfast!! Nyaha tpos clean mo dining table, wash dishes ayos and clean kitchen.. tpos liligo ka na para bango ka na.. tpos magbbihis… tpos toothbrush para hindi na bad breath [ewww] tpos go ka na to your work place work work… tapos chummy-han and chitchats with officemates.. tpos lunch na dami eat na healthy food.. tska healthy drink tpos siyesta na.. tpos back to work and back with co-workers… internet ng dami pag la do..finish work load pag dami work… tpos before you know it night time na ule and uwian na.. tpos prepare mo yourself for dinner time tpos eat ka na daming healthy dinner… tpos watch ka tv pagla na nice show… do mo na one of the to do things I just wrote for you… tapos nun… mattyrd ka na tpos sleep na… tpos wake up for the next day.. tpos smile ka ule dame.. Putting gratifications sayong routine by accomplishing one of your to do’s I prepared for you.. tpos un.. another day has passed till it has become a week and a month tpos yun.. tapos na..nyaha…
Listen ka pa rin dami music or if you want and bored and inspired enough write your own song para masaya.. nyaha.. ts yun tska memorize mo na lyrics of ol the songs you loved.. para di ka best in embento ng lyrics nyaha…
Xmpre download every lyrics tpos buy a good book.. like chicken soup for the soul.. or try mo harry potter from 1-5.. kakatuwa naman eh! Its all worth the time o kaya hanapin mo yung og mandino na the choice very well recommended promise .. or gawin mong aim na matapos ang bible from cover to cover { ito ay isa kng aim na diko matpos-tpos.. therefore dahil marami kang tym… finish my dream! Nyaha.. tapos learn to bake narin.. oh my frustrations.. nyaha.. tpos pag la ka ule magawa go ka sa mga stores and stalls and aim mo to find the perfect gift for your mom and your favorite sister... tpos magtrip ka sometime na maghanap ka jan ng masseur para maximum level of relaxationa ang iyong "mala-adonis" na katawan xmpre buy daily paper everyday!..

ayan.. i made na what i wanted to give you... skills ni ate karen nagpaturo ako... i picked out all the colours na ginamit ko kse aside from fave colors ko lahat yan, ganyan mo din ka-colorful na kulayan life ko... and all those colours are colours of joy! and that how happy you made me...

i want you to keep that... kahit dimo gamitin kung di mo trip pero xmpre preferable na use it bsta!... i made two of those, para one for you and the other for me para masaya.. [ yan sagot sa tanong mo why 2 pareho sbi mo dapat magkaiba]...

yan po isip ko give ksi rich kid na ikw so yun can have anything na.. and you have rich friends na din para give anything and everything so i cant think of anything to give na with so much value na than something i made and we both have... like this... nyaha.. :)

[ ang chiki ng handwritting mes.. tago ko lang kasi sa bag pagssulat ko para di nyo kita.. nyaha..

watch again armageddon.. nyaha!] hmf! umakyat ka namn... para ata magpack.. ayun ako lang isa here.. nyha practice ba ito?..:)

ayun bale 5am na today of the day of your departure..hahay kakaakyat lang natin... i think i've told you naman na just about everything i wanted to say you heard it na kanina...

so bon voyage nalang ciao.. hope you liked the bracelet / anklet i did myself effortfully jst for you, ngpaturo pako instantly kay ate karen...nyaha..

ayan you just woke me up scratch mo sole of my feet nyaha... bad ka! evil har har.. ayun..

that's all for now alis ka na mya-mya nyaha...

ingat ka na lng po jan uwi ka in one piece, sexy and hot... nyaha.. and alive kundi.. lagot ka kay powpie.. nyaha mamwah!

take care!

ishmyl! lage

see you realy really soon mwah!

i think one part of me died when i did return home n i assume that i could pickup where i left off pero everything is changing... like some say change is good most of the time but if you would ask me i think it would be best if left untouch...everything happens for a reason daw pero nothing happens by accident so the best lesson here is like my good friend jay would always say:

Minsan lang dumating ang taong pwedeng magmahal sayo ng totoo at kayang tumanggap ng buong pagkatao moh..... MINSAN lang...... at pag yan pinakawalan mo... baka di mo na kayang ibalik pa ang MINSAN!....

Is there something that you want to tell me...Is there something that I ought to know... Are we something that's still worth fighting for... Or should I simply let you go... Is there something I can do to reach you, Are we something more than history... I'll find some way to convince you to stay, If you just tell me honestly... Is there something left of you and me...

hindi ko alm kng ako yng nawalan or siya... pero i do know that we did love eachother... maybe

Someday I might find myself looking in her eyes But for now, we'll go on living separate lives...

and only memories to cherish and a colorful bracelet to look upon...

~trickpa trickyu~